Wednesday, August 22, 2012

I can't believe I'm LITERALLY addicted!

Hello readers, last night I realized something pretty bad. It turns out I'm addicted to Dr. Pepper. I went a whole day without drinking any (I'd had it every day for weeks now) and I, literally, began having an attack when I realized we didn't have any at home.

I'm broke, I have no money, but I had to beg my mom to buy me some, which thankfully she did. She told me it was wrong to drink Dr. Pepper like you should be drinking water, but I can't help it, I need Dr. Pepper to get me through a day!

As for my weight, well I haven't weighed myself lately and I haven't done anything to help keep the weight off, so that pretty much answers that: I'm doing squat. It sounds bad, because I'd love to be skinny before I'm out of college, but it's just not seeming to want to happen.

Side note: I started college this past Tuesday and it's not half bad. I enjoy it!

Well that's all the update I have for you. I will need to work on my addiction and hopefully have better news in my  next post!

Saturday, July 7, 2012

Back on Water...again.

I don't know what happened to me, but I went from my "water only" diet to drinking pop all the time again. Man, it's hard to stop something you love. But for the past 3 or 4 weeks, I've drank nothing but water. 

Well, that's not entirely true.

I had some fresh squeezed lemonade this week, because it was where I work and I had never had any before. Turns out I love it!! 

In doses.

I can't drink lemonade strait for a day, so I went back to water, but that aside, I've been on my "water only" diet for around a month now and it's working out great. Not drinking soda has been hard though. Really, really, super really, hard. Legit, when there are $.69 cent drinks at QT and pop where I work, it's hard to resist, but I've stayed strong and been drinking the water only.

I'm hoping that this will give me the energy to eventually do something productive with my butt like go out and jog or maybe jump rope!! I don't know exactly, but I know something will happen and when push comes to shove, I'll throw my butt out the door and do something exercise related.

Maybe I can find someone to play tennis with. Perhaps not. It all depends, really.

This is a specific challenge in itself for me since I've been addicted to Dr. Pepper and couldn't NOT drink it. I honestly almost slipped today too. I was SO CLOSE to drinking some soda, but I grabbed a water and drank that instead. PHEW! It was a close call.

Anyway, I guess that's all I have for  you now, I'll keep you updated on how things go and if I can weigh myself, that too!

Monday, July 2, 2012

New Goals for summer

Okay, I'm back with a renewed confidence. A lot has happened since school ended and I graduated high school (woot woot!), but nothing weight loss related. Until now. When I post this blog!

Okay, to start off, I am going to say that I've been a lazy couch potatoe and I can't believe I'm letting all my progress slide down the drain. It really sucks to see that my movitivation was forced upon me through school curiculum. It's sad and I feel bad about it, but it's just part of my personality, I guess.

Or not. I'm not sure.

But regardless, I need to stop being lazy and go out and do something about it. No worries, I will become a super charged, buff, extra awesome dude and look super sexy for Christmas... in 2050, maybe. Haha, I'm just kidding. I'll get my butt in gear and start doing something.

I just wanted to post this quick update.

Monday, May 14, 2012

Last day of high school

It's make it or break it at this point. I either have to have the motivation or stay fat forever. Trust me, I've thought hard about if I would have the drive to go out that door and walk, jog, or do any physically helpful activity and to be honest, I think I can do it.

Maybe I'll need a little more drive than before, but let's think about it. I will have the 8 hours I was at school to myself now. I can either work more or go out and take a jog/walk around my neighborhood. Trust me, I can do that and sleep in too! I know I can, I just have to believe in myself.

As for motivation, let's just say I want to do this for myself, as I have always wanted too.  I just hope the summer opens up some blessings for me, y'know? I wanna kick this extra weight and have a transformation! I know that that'll only happen with effort and laying off the snacks, which is SO HARD for me.

To be totally honest with you, I haven't changed my eating habits and I could only stay away from pop for around a month before I went back and drank it like water again. I failed. But I didn't stop. I'm really going to try over the summer to be a better person and break that habit.

Hopefully my next post will have a better update.

Thursday, May 3, 2012

One problem after another

So I have been feeling pretty good lately. My heel only hurts when I walk up and down steps or jog/run. I did my first set of Power Cleans Wednesday in Weight Training! I was so happy about that, I decided I'd try it and I didn't feel any pain in my foot at all when I did! (It's a exercise that works your lower ankles, etc...)

I even played Ultimate Frisbee at church Wednesday and it didn't hurt either! It was so fun to finally be able to do something again. I NEED TO PLAY TENNIS!! I think I'll post something on Facebook or something to see if anyone wants to play tennis. I really want to start that up again this summer.

As far as weight loss, I have no idea how much I weigh. I will try to weight myself soon, but I don't know where I can find an accurate scale. I only have a week left of school and I'll graduate high school. I seriously need to take my weight loss seriously, because if I don't... Well my goals won't be made (and to be honest, I don't see it happening this late in the game).

Guess I will just keep on striving and hope for the best next year. On the plus, I'll look good by college, I hope. I'll keep in touch.

Friday, April 27, 2012

Slight pain

So all I'm feeling at this point is slight pain in my heel or the right side of my right ankle. I know it'll heal on it's own, I just need to give it time. It hurts though to put to much pressure on it, but I'm out of any brace and in a regular shoe again. I have been for about a week now. I'm thankful that this is finally coming to an end because this has been my first week back in PE in 8 weeks.

To be perfectly honest with you, I'm thankful to have this class again. It's funny too, today my Max Bench Press went up 20 pounds! Is that even possible after 8 weeks of doing NOTHING??!!! I guess so... Give me some place to write and my fingers will increase my muscle. Haha, don't think it works that way...

This isn't much to say, but I'll try to post again when I start being more active.

Thursday, April 19, 2012

Hopefully my last week in a brace...

I'll be perfectly honest with you, aside from my heel hurting when I walk, my ligaments don't feel torn any longer and I am hoping my heel will resolve itself.  I plan on being back to my regular self by this weekend. I'd better not be hurting next week or I won't be happy.

The doctor said If I'm hurting in 3 or 4 weeks (being next week), I need to call them because I will need physical therapy. Please God, I don't need that. I don't want that. I want to be fine. Perfectly and completely fine

As far as losing weight, I haven't gained anything back, I don't think (I HOPE NOT!!), since I've been out of Weight Training. I mean, I've got a big build regardless, so I'll always have plus sized clothing just for the fact that I've got broad shoulders and I'm so tall. I mean, I'll never fit in a Medium sized shirt, or even a Large, because of the type of build I have.

All I have to do is stem that body into a toned and fit dude. I'll be honest, I don't see this happening until halfway into my college experience. I assume I'll eat less and not have the chance to be so pudgy. I mean, I don't get a free food coupon under my pillow every day I wake up.

I just thought I'd share the update with everyone and I hope to go do upper body work outs next week! I REALLY WANT BACK INTO CLASS!!

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Not helping myself

I'm not really helping myself at all by staying out of PE. When I went to see my specialist, I got stuck with a different doctor, but he said it was healing fine and I need to switch out of my boot in the evening and wear a brace that allows my foot to move up and down only and not side to side.

My dad was lazy and just made me wear the brace I got from the hospital. My boot quit airing up last weekend though so now I have to wear the other brace all day now. My foot doesn't hurt when you touch it or feel, but it hurts when I walk, that's it. I walk with a dumb limp now and it's super annoying. I wish I could just be fine now but I can't help but try to get better.

As for my exercise, I've kissed that good-bye. I'm not able to do weight bearing exercises and I am gaining more weight back so I've lost practically all hope on getting that to happen again. I don't know what I'm going to do... I need a better job, that's for sure. Make more money. That will help.

Speaking of, I'm going to apply at more places this weekend. Maybe since I'm 18 now, I can get a job that pays me more then just $7.25/hour. I need a little more income then that, if you know what I mean.

As soon as my foot is better, I will be able to get my license. At that point, I will be able to apply anywhere and get a job making more money.

I wanted you guys to know I'm not really helping myself as I sit around, but that the little hope I have of losing weight is almost gone. Even though I know it will happen one day. I just know that won't be today.

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

It wasn't a severe sprain after all...

So it turns out I didn't sprain my ankle like the ER doctor had told me after my x-rays. I had an appointment with my primary doctor that following Monday and he wanted me to get an MRI so I can get a better look at my ankle.

Well I went to the hospital and had to fill out some paperwork before I had to change into some loose fitting scrubs that were terrible, they didn't even feel like actual scrubs! Well I got the MRI and I had to stay very still for about 30 minutes while they did the MRI, I just listened to country music on the radio.

Afterwards, they just took me back to the room I was at before, I got dressed again, and I got to go get the boot i was ordered. Well I had to wait in this empty room for about 35 minutes with my dad waiting to go back and get my boot. It was really long and annoying. I wanted to rewind back to when this happened and fall on my face, instead of landing on my foot. I can handle a broken nose better...

Well the boot fit snug and it was a fancy, expensive boot that I wished I didn't need, but knew was necessary. I spend the day doing all this and it was really annoying not to be able to walk anywhere.

The MRI said that I had a Torn Ligament and it would take longer to heal then a sprain would... PERFECT!!

This is all putting a kink in my plans. I can't exercise very well if I can't use my foot. I can't lose weight in my gut at least. I really hate this is all... Sorry if I ranted a little to much.

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Sprained my ankle

I was in weight training yesterday and we were running (and jumping) over boxes (these obstacles not very high) and I tripped over one and started to stumble half way through them so I kept jumping over them, trying to catch myself and I ending up stopping and catching myself on my right foot.

Well I don't remember exactly what happened after that, other then it hurt LIKE HELL to walk or move my foot. I went to the nurse (with the help of someone letting me put my weight on them) and I had to go home. The nurse said it was either broken or sprained. My mom got me and took me to the ER and I spent 6 hours, mostly waiting around.

Well we found I had a severe sprain and I needed a splint and to use crutches. Right now, its so hard to get used too because I feel dumb not being very good at using the crutches, but I guess it takes time...

I won't be able to do squat in Weight Training for awhile, even though the doctor said I should be fine by Monday. I don't know, I have to keep it elevated when I can and that's hard to do. I can't believe this happened to me!

I guess that's all I can say... I just hope I can get better fast because I can't lose weight with a sprained ankle because I can hardly hobble across a room...

Monday, February 27, 2012

5 pounds less!

Weight before: 279.4
Current weight: 274

I am so proud of myself for losing 5 pounds! I am so thankful to myself that I chose to take Weight Training because it has helped me lose weight AND get stronger. It's like a double whammy!

Well I doubt I'll have any trouble because my progress is looking great. I wanted to give a quick update because I haven't been posting as frequently, but I'm still losing weight!

Monday, February 13, 2012

Making Progress

Current Weight: 279.4 lbs

So I've totally lost weight since being 295 pounds! I know it has a lot to do with having my Weight Training class and not eating all that much, unless I feel like pigging out. I just know that it's totally fantastic to see the progress I'm making!

If you've seen the videos I've posted on YouTube (My most recent video is 8 months ago), you'll see how much chubbier my face was compared to how I look now. Not to mention, I had a buzz cut back then and now I'm growing out my hair, but I don't think that affects my weight.

I plan on hopefully losing some weight in my stomach before summer so I can have an ideal beach body (or not so flabby tummy). I think it's embarrassing to go to the pool shirtless and be fat... I don't think I'm ugly or have self confidence issues, I just don't like the way people look at me. Its dumb. They are, not me, for judging, but it's just weird, y'know?

Hopefully I can post some videos again shortly so you can see how thinner my face is from when I started this blog and somewhat journey.... That's all I have for this update though, but I'll try to keep this updated!

Monday, January 16, 2012

New year, new goal(s)!

So I've been able to take away the soda from myself pretty easily. I have been drinking pretty much water now except for when I have milk at school. I am only drinking soda on occasion now (like if I'm hanging out with friends or have a party (which has happened)). I think I've done a good job at disciplining myself, but I know I've still got a lot of ground to cover.

First off, This weight training class I've been taking at school is my saving grace! I wouldn't work out at all if I didn't have this class and coach works us to the bone! I'm doing all kinds of stuff that I've never wanted to do before!! (We just got a new field house this semester and the weights aren't in yet, so while we weight, coach makes us do a lot of running, push-ups, and sit-ups).

It's been crazy! My life has been crazy recently! I know you won't know this unless your reading my other blog, Random Videos and Rants, but I got a girlfriend this past December and we've been doing great! She supports me 100% on losing weight, but she says she accepts me for who I am no matter what. She even teases me and calls me her big, strong man when I text her what I did in Weight Training for that day. It always makes me smile too.

I'm trying to lose weight for me, I know that I've got big bones regardless of how much weight I lose, so I will NEVER be out of a XL shirt just for that reason, but I can get out of 3X and hopefully 2X sometime before July (My goal now is my birthday). I keep saying I'll break down and start running again, but I just can't get myself to do that.

It's finally spring meaning it's Tennis season again, but this year, I'm not going to play tennis. With all the drama that happened last season between my 2 best friends and the stuff that went down, it's not smart to put myself in that situation again. I just wish I knew how to make everyone happy again, that's the biggest problem. Everyone moved on except a couple of people and I just wish I could 'right the wrongs' in my life... I know it'd make everyone happy again. Or at least I'd hope.

So I won't be playing tennis this year for mainly that reason. Also,  you need 6 credit earning classes and I only have 5 right now. I dropped Graphic Design earlier for a study hall and now I'm not able to play anyway. I'll be fine, I just need to make sure I'm running after school like I would be in Tennis practice.

I'm sorry that I can't give you my weight on this post, but I'll try to give it to  you sometime soon! Lastly, I want to wish everyone a happy new year!! 2012 is the year of change, I can feel it! So many good things will happy in 2012, I just know it!