Saturday, July 16, 2011

Good news ... when I stop hating it

I know it's for the best and I know that I will be glad that I did this later on, but I just hate giving my dad so much satisfaction. Because of schedule conflicts, I am taking Weight Training my senior year. My dads doesn't know yet, he won't until this following Friday or Saturday, but he is going to be so happy to find out that I'm taking it. He will be all 'this is a good thing' and 'you will be fat your whole life if you don't take it' and all that other crap.

I refuse to be fat for the rest of my life and I don't like how he thinks that. But the title here is only half true now, I do want to lose weight, but I only want to lose weight in the efforts of bulking up. I wanna be able to take off my shirt at the pool without harsh comments or stares. Trust me, people judge. Now for me, I like larger woman, I actually find them attractive. I don't judge on size or weight, but rather on who they are on this inside as a person and if we have similarities. I only want to improve my health so I stay on the earth a little longer...

I don't really want a girlfriend right now or anything until after I get a job, but when I have the job, money, and car, then I will look into having a girlfriend. So weight training is going to help because every girl wants a smoking hot boyfriend, and that's wanna I'm gonna be. I will be there hunky.

Saturday, July 9, 2011

I'm back with a vengence!

So I used my jump rope the other day and got some great time in, which I have been needing, but I think it needs to be consecutive because after my 20 minute jump and the sit-ups and push-ups I did, my legs throbbed, so bad. They hurt for 3 days. Stairs were the worst. I have some steep stairs to my upstairs and when I went up or down, POW! I felt my legs…

I think it’s good that I had pain, that progress was set and I now have a goal again, a reason to lose weight. I have been in a depressive rut for the past few months and didn’t do anything. Luckily, I didn’t lose any weight though. I wanted to post today to let my readers know that I’m not giving up, my reason to lose weight is back and I’m going to keep trying! I will not give up.

I want to be a healthy individual and I want to take off my shirt at the pool and not hear groans from across the pool or whispers I can’t hear. I will be sexy again. I know and believe it.