Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Taking away the soda

So a couple of weeks ago, I started something new. I began an water-only diet. No, I still eat solid foods, I'm not completely crazy, I just drink water. Nothing but water. Now my school serves either milk or orange juice with your breakfast and/or lunch, but other than that, I drink water. I have a water bottle and I make sure that's all I'm drinking. That along with my Weight Training class (hopefully I'll start running after school too), I hope to lose some weight and better my life.

I am pretty sure, If I got the body, I would get the girl. Let's face it, I've said this before and I'll say it again, this is a very prejudice world. People judge you based on appearance. Taylor Lautner (Aka, Jacob Black) is a teen heart-throb because he has the body. He could pretty much get any girl he wanted. I don't want any girl though, but I know I will be single for a very long time if I'm fat forever. I'm doing this for myself.

Sure, I've got a great personality, so I've been told. That doesn't get you very far anymore, though I'm not complaining, I like my personality too. I just want to do this for myself, so I can know I'm doing my best in life. So I haven't weighted myself recently, but I'll post when I have lost some weight (maybe I have too, I'm not sure).

I wanted to tell you that by only drinking water, I hope to weigh around 270 before January. If that doesn't happen, I won't beat myself up, but I'm trying. I'm really trying. 

Monday, September 19, 2011

Weight Training, weeks in.

Alright, I have been really working in weight training and trying to push myself so I'm not fat forever. I have actually proven to be slightly successful, I think my pants are getting bigger on me, not so much my shirts though. I am going to have to buy a belt when I get paid.

Yes, I got a job, finally!

I want to work on getting things together and making my body healthier. So I weighed myself today and my current weight is at 282 lbs. In May (I never posted my weight since then), I was 285 lbs and I have, technically lost 3 lbs since then. I don't see that as a lot, but it's more then 0 lbs, right?

I am going to keep posting because I enjoy weight training and I hope that I continue to lose weight. I don't know how often I will update, but I hope you still read this blog and enjoy reading my journey to a more successful, healthy life.

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Good news ... when I stop hating it

I know it's for the best and I know that I will be glad that I did this later on, but I just hate giving my dad so much satisfaction. Because of schedule conflicts, I am taking Weight Training my senior year. My dads doesn't know yet, he won't until this following Friday or Saturday, but he is going to be so happy to find out that I'm taking it. He will be all 'this is a good thing' and 'you will be fat your whole life if you don't take it' and all that other crap.

I refuse to be fat for the rest of my life and I don't like how he thinks that. But the title here is only half true now, I do want to lose weight, but I only want to lose weight in the efforts of bulking up. I wanna be able to take off my shirt at the pool without harsh comments or stares. Trust me, people judge. Now for me, I like larger woman, I actually find them attractive. I don't judge on size or weight, but rather on who they are on this inside as a person and if we have similarities. I only want to improve my health so I stay on the earth a little longer...

I don't really want a girlfriend right now or anything until after I get a job, but when I have the job, money, and car, then I will look into having a girlfriend. So weight training is going to help because every girl wants a smoking hot boyfriend, and that's wanna I'm gonna be. I will be there hunky.

Saturday, July 9, 2011

I'm back with a vengence!

So I used my jump rope the other day and got some great time in, which I have been needing, but I think it needs to be consecutive because after my 20 minute jump and the sit-ups and push-ups I did, my legs throbbed, so bad. They hurt for 3 days. Stairs were the worst. I have some steep stairs to my upstairs and when I went up or down, POW! I felt my legs…

I think it’s good that I had pain, that progress was set and I now have a goal again, a reason to lose weight. I have been in a depressive rut for the past few months and didn’t do anything. Luckily, I didn’t lose any weight though. I wanted to post today to let my readers know that I’m not giving up, my reason to lose weight is back and I’m going to keep trying! I will not give up.

I want to be a healthy individual and I want to take off my shirt at the pool and not hear groans from across the pool or whispers I can’t hear. I will be sexy again. I know and believe it.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

10 pounds

I have been really busy, not to mention my computer has been taken away for awhile (lets just call it a look into the computers data). So I am currently updating all my blog on school computers, guess where I am now (Hint: It's in a building where you learn things). If you guessed, Home, your not as bright as you might think. I am at school right now posting updates.

Well I stepped on my scale last night, hoping it's accurate, and I was shocked to see the results. I have been trying to progress through tennis and get better, by pushing myself harder each time, unless I'm having an off days, which suck. I am pleased with the progress I have found and I am looking forward to the summer when I have to start doing things solo. I am nervous, because I don't know if I have the self discipline needed to continue this weight loss journey. Losing weight is all about consistency and that's what I have been lacking, honestly, I can admit that. My weight is recorded below....

Previous weight (since I've checked): 295 lbs.

Current Weight: 285 lbs.

I like to think I'm winning, but over this long amount of weeks, 10 pounds doesn't seem like much. I know it's all about patients and what-not, but I wanted some better results, 25+ pounds would have been what I was expecting but I can admit that I was making some bad eating choices over the past few weeks. Maybe I need a friend who will workout with me and keep things consistant, who also plays tennis! I don't know, we will find out eventually....

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Tennis Activity

So I had to be at the tennis courts today at 7:45 this morning because I was going to Harvesters to do some volunteering work as a part of out tennis team. I guess the coach want's us to get to know everyone else and not spend the season never knowing most of your team mates. I think it's smart, though I still don't know a lot of my mates on the team and it's well into the 3rd (or maybe 4th) week of tennis practices. I have known a few since the pre-season workouts over a month ago, but most of the recent additions have been during the regular season.

Harvesters was intense because we had to get raw pasta noodles and put them in these bags, making sure the bags were 3 lbs. We then sealed them and put them in boxes. We went through three 1,000 pound boxes of raw noodles and my back was killing me! I had to keep telling myself to 'man up' and stop complaining to myself, so I did. I kept quiet and did an amazing job, probably filling bags like a pro!

We finished that 3 hours later and went to get something to eat on the way back to the tennis courts. We stopped at some strange deli and my friend George insisted on us getting a pizza. He only brought $10 and my dad gave me $20. The pizza's were $13.50 for a 16'' pizza. We were kinda stupid at math at the time so we bought 2 pizzas. TALK ABOUT RUINING YOUR DIET!!!! That pizza was HUGE!!!!! I wish I brought my camcorder with me so I could prove it but your gonna have to believe me. The slices were so outrageous that I said anyone who wanted some pizza could have a slice. Only 3 people took us up on the offer but I still ate .... 5 pieces of pizza.

I feel like I picked up my goal and punched it in the face several times with each bite, grease dripping from the pizza. I regreted it as soon as I saw it, my original plan was to buy a calizone, but I opted out of  it because I wanted to get the pizzas with George. I guess I could have gotten the calizone and still paid for part of George's pizza. Oh well, Can't change the past. I was gonna weight myself in the nurses office on Friday but then forgot about spring break this week.

Expect a new blog Monday with my weight finaly being posted. I wish this pizza never happened. I'm don't know what came over me, I have always loved food. It's always been my weakness and it overpowered my brain today. My friend Kyle got a sub sandwich and ate one and a half slices of pizza, which was smart. I can't beat myself up over a decision I could have easily changed. I have to just work a little harder at workouts this week.

We are off Friday but we have practices tomorrow, I am hoping that eventually, when I reach my goal, I will no longer be that weird guy you want to ignore and finally get some respect. I feel like I would have better success at everything if I wasn't fat. Deny it all you want but there are shallow people who don't like fat people. I know a few.... I'm losing this weight for myself mostly, but also to prevent any future issues. Thanks for reading this post and expect a new post sometime Monday.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

My father doesn't care!

So my dad told me that as long as i'm living with him, I will eat what he serves or starve. But all my dad want's to eat it junk filled with fat and a load of calories! He doesn't care about me wanting sub sandwiches, though my mom understands. When my dad was gone this previous week, I was able to eat right because my mom agreed with me and was doing likewise, I think I was making progress and losing some weight, I don't know for sure though.

When my dad showed up Saturday morning, He wanted to go out and eat at a buffet, the worst place to go when your trying to diet. I couldn't sit there and eat one plate of food because my dad, we all should know him by now, would get offended and mad at me. So I drank milk and got 3 plates of food, not big plates though. I tried my best to eat right, but I hardly even saw anything healthy at the buffet! Then the following day I ate at Applebee's with my aunt and sister. I think I'm trying hard to lose weight, I just don't think I am doing enough, Maybe I am doomed to fail.

Friday night, when I had an amazing half-party, my mom made cupcakes and bought mini doughnuts. That was bad for me, not to mention she bought six 2 litters of pop, which only 2 I will drink. All these crappy foods are making me mad, really mad. There are so many foods that I enjoy, filled with crap, while there are so little foods I enjoy, filled with goodness.

I wish I knew how many calories, ect... were in the school lunches so I knew the best lunch to choose each week. Oh well, I hope to get my weight posted this week, my scale is officially dead. I will have to break down and see the school nurse (the humiliation), Oh well. I am willing to make the sacrifice, for the good of my health and the team. Haha, that was just cheezy.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Tennis isn't the easiest game....

Little did I know, Tennis is harder then I would have guessed. Skipping the workouts, which are brutal to my legs, but worth it, I think there are some crazy good players on the team. There are so many techniques you can use on the court that will help you in a match. Plus the books were reading are dumb, but portray ways in which you and reflect, which my be helpful.

I think if i work out the diet portion of my tennis practices, things will work out great for me. I've been trying to get my mom to buy me sub sandwiches or something healthy, I don't really care, because workouts are great, I know that, but I want to lose 75 pounds! I need to eat healthy and workout, it has to go hand and hand with each other.

I don't want to do the workouts and then eat a fat, greasy cheeseburger for dinner with cheese, fries, and a soda. I want a sub (or something else healthy) and some water. No exceptions. You have to be strict to get results, at least I do, personally. I cave in to easily and I absolutely love food, so it's hard for me to resist a good meal, especially if it's taco's! There good, but full of nasty things my body doesn't need....

What I hate the most about it all is that I don't like lettuce, tomatoes, peppers, cucumbers, onions, ect... How can you lose weight if your taste buds are all jacked up? Sure, eat other things that are healthy, right? Almost everything you order is only healthy with lettuce or tomatoes! I eat onions if there cooked, i don't like raw onions .... It makes me mad to look at myself in the mirror everyday and know my waist is not getting any smaller.

I  like to think that one day, I will finally achieve my goal, but as for now, It's makes me depressed. I always look at things on the bright side. There's never a reason to be upset with your body, just yourself for making it that way. Though in my case, is it fair to blame my parents for feeding me the junk food while I was being raised and a wee little guy or is it my fault for picking up the food and putting it in my mouth? I think it's a 50/50 blame game. Though, being 17 years old now, I think its more 80/20 on me because I have the to power to get a job and buy my own food but I'm being lazy and letting them buy the food.

I can except responsibility for my actions, I just wish they would start agreeing with me and buy the food that's good for me. It would help them too. My whole family is "overweight" technically, so maybe they should consider that the next time they buy snack foods. Sure, we all make mistakes, but even if you confess that to yourself, your not going to make progress unless you tell yourself "NO!". I think I've started to do that this week and I'm gonna persevere and work harder then ever at practices this week, I'm gonna put my determined face on and tell myself over and over, "I AM NOT GOING TO LET MY BODY WIN!". I am going to take control and start making the RIGHT choices for me, end of story.

Friday, March 4, 2011

Sports Physicals

So yesterday, when I was pulled out of school early, forced to miss my favorite class, Algebra 2 (just kidding), I got a physical. Not just any physical, a sports physical (I think it was a regular physical but calling it a "sports" physical sounds a lot cooler). Lucky for me, I can relate this to the weight loss blog, because the first thing I had to do, before I actually saw the docter and got my physical, was get my height and weight checked. I slipped off my shoes and got my height, putting me at 6'2'' (which disapoints me, because I thought I was 6'3'' these past 4 or 5 months) then I got my weight checked.

My weight, according to the more accurate doctors scale, puts me at exactly 290 lbs. Thats incredible, since I thought I was 295 the past few weeks. To my suprise, the weight I seem to have never had gave me a small boost in confidence. Knowing i had 5 less pounds to lose gave me a small glistening chance that, perhaps, this journey to 215 lbs might actually happen. I only have to lose 75 pounds and I'll reach my goal. From then on, I will only have to worry about keeping that weight.

I was talking to my mom and asked her if she could buy me a sub sandwich when she gets hers until I get the weight under control and really commit to losing this weight. My mom has been trying to lose some weight also and, from what I know, she has been buying a foot long sub every 2 days and eats a 6-inch sub each night for dinner, probably (this I'm guessing) skipping lunch. Well I refuse to skip lunch. I would prefer to pack my own lunches and go that route, but when school lunches are free, why spend extra money on packing your own lunch?

Oh well, I hope you keep reading and look forward to the new posts, I'm really trying to lose this weight but It's a constant battle with myself and also a few personal things...

Saturday, February 26, 2011

End of February

I am terribly sorry for the lack of blog posts/videos recently. I haven't been extra busy, but I have been very occupied with other things. You probably know that I keep my regular blog updated, hince making you wonder why it's so hard to keep this updated as well. The answer is simple, if I can't post about weight loss related materials, then I don't find it relavent to post.

To make sure this blog wasn't a waste of time, I will let you in on a few things. Our Tennis coach told us that if there is nice weather going on outside, do not go to practices and go strait to Bennet Park and play Tennis. Lucky for me, were gonna start riding a bus out to Bennet Park on Monday, because it's "Officially" the tennis season. Last week, I had to get a ride from my friend, Kyle.

Hopefully we will get some good practices going, so we can be ready for our first tournement, which is going to be mid-march! I am hoping that my sister can go to my tournement but i'm unsure on her other plans, she does a sport too! Lucky for me, my friends are all in the sport I chose, making it more fun for everyone.

I know you want to know how much my current weight is, and lucky for me, my scale went back to 0 magically (I swear it was broken when i last checked!) so I don't know if the scale is gonna lie to me or give me my honest weight.

Currently, the scale puts me between 290 and 300 lbs, which kinda upsets me because I think my weight went up (notice how unsure i am?). If I were going to choose the smart thing to do, I would stay away from bad foods, thats my only problem (other then lack of exercise, which i need more consently to do). I plan to train myself to obey the commands I give. I don't need ice cream, I want it. I don't need to finish my plate if i'm full, don't force yourself to do anything. I see where i'm failing, i'm just not doing anything to fix it. I think that's a lot of other peoples issue as well, at least, I would hope i'm not the only one with a lack of self-control issues.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Junk Food Rant

I thought I would post this quick blog post. I know it's text only, but going through my other blog, i decided that my rant about junk food was pretty good. If your a follower of my regular blog then you have probably already read it, but for those of you that haven't read my regular blog, I reccommend that you read it. So here is the post that I wanted to show you.


Thursday, January 20, 2011

Little news, if any (at all) ...

Be sure to leave me comments and suggestions for the endng of the video. Thanks, to all who leave suggestions.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Cardio Workouts

Hope that this weeks updating is informing enough, sorry about the error in weight on my first blog.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Small Introduction

I decided to post strait to the site instead of using YouTube to embed, this will just cause less hassles even though it will take longer. Remember to check out my regular blog if you want to check that out.